&JOANNE

2010-01-31T03:51:00.000-08:00

"A competent and self-confident person is incapable of jealousy in anything. Jealousy is invariably a symptom of neurotic insecurity."

2010-01-24T06:13:00.000-08:00

"You are the best. You are the worst. You are average. Your love is a part of you. You try to give it away because you cannot bear its radiance, but you cannot separate it from yourself. To understand your fellow humans, you must understand why you give them your love. You must realize that hate is but a crime-ridden subdivision of love. You must reclaim what you never lost. You must take leave of your sanity, and yet be fully responsible for your actions."

-Gnarls Barkley, in a letter to the legendary rock critic Lester Bangs

2009-12-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

Hello all!
woohoo my blog is dead! blogging by request of zhongyi haha, i can't believe i haven't updated in such a looooong time.

but this week was wow! :D
batch chalet:

was whee. played cards leanrt bridge camwhored, swam and tanned(failed), daytona, nightcycling! speaking of which Im sorry nicholas, you seemed reaaaally tired the next morning hahaha. But thanks for the ride yeah it was fun. Oh and thanks ben for the shirt i was freeeeezing.

I realise i forgot some stuff that happened already. shit. Ohoh! went to yiyang's house after the chalet and had a few games of bridge before everyone concussed on his floor for a few hours haha. And first time i wore shirt and fbt to 313 @ somerset!

Was sick the next day so didn't go to AHA rehearsal. ): But tada saturday was the actual performance! Thanks zhongyi for choreo-ing and letting me dance although i came in pretty last minute hahaha. Funfunfun. skipskipskip.

Mcdonalds for supper as I sat with a table full of guys who ate mcspicys like this faaaaaaast. *points to speeding car*. Okay moving on (omg im getting bored) went to his house and played bridge and pool and slapjack and ignoring yiyang who kept asking me to sleep LOL. (im sorry :D ) camwhored again and goodnight all.

And AHA the next day! Second time i wore shirt and fbt to 313 @somerset. Oh bytheway if you are still reading up till this point, I applaud you because i think this post is typed in a very irritating manner. So if you're reading this, i shal give you a mars bar the next time you see me! Woohoo! :D

After AHA we went to the airport to send yiyang off. HI YIYANG! I think i cried like a retard but don't judge me! Cabbed home with pearlynn and prawn and jianhao and the midnight+airport surcharge wasn't as bad as I thought!

Note to self: I owe pearlynn money. and i think jianhao too?

Flying off tomorrow, will be back on the 4th! Bye babes!

2009-12-07T06:44:00.000-08:00

Speechless, lady gaga.

I can’t believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreamsa

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?

If I promise to you boy
That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose death and company
Why you so speechless?

2009-12-02T07:38:00.000-08:00

So baby raise a glass to mend all the broken hearts
of all my wrecked up friends.

I don't even know how to feel now. It's weird to cry because that would be totally overreacting ( technically it would be). But then again, I don't know how I'm feeling now. Damned.

Need a hug.

2009-11-22T01:28:00.001-08:00

Sorry! i cant be arsed to blog anyore, its just going out and coming home everyday -.- so theres actually no need for you to come back, unless you want to hear my ramblings on things that make sense to no one but me. yep.

"What's gone and what's past help
Should be past grief."

Is it legal not to care, and to mind my own business, be happy and leave it at that? Is it legal to be fustrated by someone when it isn't even her god damn fault? Is it legal to be exasperated by something that hardly concerns me? I dont understand why Im so bothered, because technically, I don't even have a right to be.

But then again, no one has the right to be. And im not the only one.
Hang me if its illegal, because although I've tried, I cant change my opinions.

2009-11-17T07:09:00.000-08:00

Of me, you, us, and everyone else.

We are mere hypocrites of our promises.
Be it vows, commitments or mere affirmations. So many times I had had promised something that at a certain point of time seemed to be perfectly acceptable, but after a period I come to realise that many of such promises have become an abyss of nothingness.

Fuck that. That's what we all do, assuring one another that a pact would be kept, but once the time comes we forget anything we once said, and the sugared words of honour plainly dissolves after a while.

Often i tell myself never to do that anymore, not to take someones pact for granted. Never to naively believe everything I hear, not to trust that a promise would be fulfilled when I know that there is a chance that it might never be. But I guess friends have an empowering effect on people, an unspoken spell that makes us trust whatever they say.

But we never practise what we preach.

So here i am. Sorry to those that I've hurt, I know there are many promises that i had failed to keep. And although I know its never anyones fault, fuck all those who raised my hopes high, only to bring it crashing down again.

Tonight, I've learnt that disappointment doesn't taste as bitter as I thought it would. Perhaps with time I have adapted to its sapidity.

2009-11-14T23:12:00.000-08:00

Far away, this ship is taking me far away,

I've had enough!!! Not going to continue waiting for people to upload photos hahaha. Next time im going to bring my own lousy sldifhb camera so i cant upload them on facebook and not have to wait so long :D

hmm lets see. Friday was town with the girls! And yesterday was sob fiesta, watched MySister'sKeeper with yiyang and i almost cried throughout the whole movie. Almost as good as the book!

Oh no I've been adam-ing since the morning): And the whole reason why I wanted to stay at home today was to throw away all those disgusting papers and worksheets. Anyways (yes i know no one cares about adam lambert, but) Im in love with his cover of Starlight!

Its stuck in my head.

Okayokay im going to pack my stuff soon, and recycle them (hopefully haha).

2009-11-12T04:59:00.000-08:00

Black holes and revelations,

^ uploaded a picture from eons ago just because i want my post to have a picture. (read: I am a loser)

Os end tomorrow!!!!!
come back soon, I'll start blogging normally and normally and averagely and often and once every 2 or 3 days again! Or maybe everyday!

You have no idea what liberation tastes like until it really hits you.
And its hitting me soon! :D

Anyways i think my new skin looks weird, but oh well i dont really know what to do with it! Cant find anything better so i guess this will have to do.

2009-10-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

wow 2 days to Os!
no im not going to start rambling about how dead i am.

hahaha so many pictures to post but im lazy~
hundreds of pictures after Os kkkk, to all those people who used to read my blog everyday but has sinced abandoned this lonely ship, wait 3 more weeks and i'll be back posting everyday like no ones business!

a quote to share. :D

Tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow.
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

-Shakespeare, macbeth!

boreddddddd.

2009-10-17T03:17:00.000-07:00

words that never come out of my mouth.
(and words that i'll reread and laugh at years later)

1) im afraid of being too close to my dad, because im afraid that he dies a premature death from his smoking.

2) sometimes i hug my mom not only because i love her, but also because i want to be reassured that she loves me.

3) the main reason why i want to do well for my Os is that i want to be better than my sister for once.

4) i am afraid of being a failure of a human.

5) other than family, friends mean soooooooo much to me. but i never seem to be able to tell them how much i love them.

6) im terribly afraid of death. not my passing on, but that of my loved ones. i hate to think that my parents will die before me.

7) sometimes i dont act like my true self just so that i can fit in.

8) sometimes, i hate myself. but i never tell others that i do.

9) i feel like a burden when i tell friends about my problems. so one day i just stopped.

10) i wish i had the courage to tell someone how insecure i feel at times.

2009-10-07T23:55:00.000-07:00

MY HEAD HURTS.
uh faster recover lah Os are in 18 days and i have the flu. sniff sniff/

oh gosh tomorrow is the last day of school in nanhua.
MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL.
i cant believe time passed so faaaaaaaaaast.

2009-09-29T02:50:00.001-07:00

27 days to Os.

friend?
don't know why im so.. pissed? nah thats not the word. perturbed maybe. my favourite word to use.

because im wondering, although i know its not right to wonder, not right to think badly of others, of someone who is supposedly my.. friend.

but i cant help it. i still wonder.

i wonder what you tell them, i wonder if they know. i wonder what you're thinking. i wonder if she knows all those things that you said about her. i wonder if they know all those things you've said about them.

i dont really care about brainwashing anymore. at least, i don't try to. its natural for all 3 sides to have such impressions on each other.

27 days to Os, and here i am, blogging and whining like a sec1 twit or something.

but i can't help it.

i wonder if he knows how you treat your friends, if she knows how you treat your friends, if they know how you treat your friends.

8 more days of school, why do i still care?

but i still wonder, and i wonder why.

i wonder why everything seems wrong to you, i wonder why you're always right. why we all used to just keep quiet, maybe to prevent a fight?

i wonder, why I'm starting to feel more negative, why im moving to the other side.

i shouldn't wonder, but i can't stop.

i wonder how there are different definitions of a friend. an accessory? spare tires? someone you've always enjoyed being with since the beginning?

after that day i felt sorry, but for some reason the guilt just fades away.
whats worse is that its being replaced by.. dislike. not hatred, dislike.

8 more days left of school, how many days are we actually going? it'll end like this i guess.
so i should stop wondering. stop.

stop wondering because it wont make a difference, because there isn't time left, because its mean to wonder, because i shouldn't be a bitch.

2009-09-02T05:18:00.001-07:00

how many ways are there to a sorry?

i know you're reading this. talk to me. im sorry.
you have no idea how guilty i am now.

sorry.

2009-09-01T06:13:00.000-07:00

hi beng im updating.
FEEL HONOURED!

hmm dont know why i can upload pictures! see, even blogger is telling me that now is not the time to be updating!

OMG PRELIMS ARE TOMORROW. and i dont know letter formats -.-

thinking of you by katyperry is a totally awesome song!

i am terribly bored and tired, having studied for the whole day at mr mcdonald's house.

im also extremely worried because i dont remember the last time i paid attention during chinese lessons!

its so cold today, AM I IN SINGAPORE?

oh, im in narnia! :D

alsbglksa vlksa byebye!

2009-08-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

today, i realised that i can really really really screw my oral to a very large extent.

fuck.):

2009-08-17T07:07:00.000-07:00

what am i doing?

is this right? is this wrong? am i being too nice? am i giving the wrong impression?

what am i supposed to do ):

never wanted to hurt anyone.

2009-08-14T06:43:00.001-07:00

you might as well come back after Os or prelims, i cant be arsed to blog! :D

2009-08-09T08:02:00.000-07:00

I WASTED 3/4 OF MY LONG WEEKEND ALREADY OMLS D:

2009-08-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

your faith walks on broken glass,

nationalday celebration in school, got my service award with all the other exco membets minus nicholas.

netball interclass was fun, i think 406 has sportsmanship and they're really cool on court! and they 3cheered for 406 and 407 at the end, which was awesome too.

then went shintokyo to eat with the guys and girls. and then went jurong point, walked around playing stupid games like fuzzy wuzzy and meh meh jump over the wall and bang bang bang and black magic.

to the extent that we became tired even before the movie started.

anyhow the movie was really awesome and sad and touching and funny and cute and everything!

and i shall adruptly end here :D

2009-08-05T06:42:00.000-07:00

keeping faith, because thats all i have left.

zhongyi's lesson on sunday, its been such a long time since i went for his lessons! cant wait for AHA after Os. :D

really really tired today and yesterday and monday, takes me a lot of determination to get out of bed. ): I havent been blogigng for such a long time and my blog is dead! oh well. sorry if i dont really make sense because im kind of typing without thinking.

i miss dance. i miss dance. i miss dance.

my life in nanhua is ending, i'll miss fourseven, the awesomest class ever.

everydays a blur of class tests common tests mock exams or timed practices. and after school its studying till my eyes feel like they're going to crack, and then go home and stone and sleep.

19 days to prelims!

i love you guys!

2009-08-04T06:14:00.000-07:00

i can still feel it on my tongue.

im feeling tired stressed anxious angry sad happy laughy stupid agitated.

2009-07-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

the reason why i havent blogged for so many days,

1) im lazy
2) i seem to have tests everyday!
3) i have no life. hence i have no photos, and things to post about.

tsktsk. the pathetic lifestyle of a sec4. ): i have 4 tests tomorrow is that even like legal?! oh well. study study study.

why must everything be about you, and not anyone else? why must the things you say revolve around you? why do the worst things happen to you, and why, am i supposed to care? im tired of doing so -.-

2009-07-29T05:05:00.001-07:00

I MUST STOP SLACKING!

2009-07-27T02:41:00.000-07:00

there are no boundaries,

hello!

didnt go to school today. (: yes, to those who asked, im really sick, didnt pon. hahaha

Help Charmaine in her fight against Cancer!‏

at first i was just going to delete the email, because mails from nuffnang are equivalent to spam mails. then i took a closer look and realised that its about charmaine!

i've been reading her blog for a while now, well actually its not her blog but a blog for, and about her. and now we can donate!

donate because you know someone who has cancer. or at least you know someone who knows someone who has cancer. my grandma has cancer, and its not a nice feeling :/

donate because her chances of surviving would be doubled if she gets to go to america for treatment. ( from 20% to 50%)

go go go! click on the nuffnang ad to the left. its simple, really. (:

2009-07-26T06:25:00.000-07:00

im soaked.

ee my hair is super thick. need to cut it soon anzai you wanna cut for me? haha..

does anyone think he looks like leehom!?! im seriousss.

went malaysia on friday to celebrate my grandma's birthday. fun loads, but i got sick. ): i think its food poisoning but i ate a lot so i dont what what it is!

it could be laksa, wantonmee, ice kachang, chaoguotiao, ramly burger, or the dinner. yes i ate all that in one day. serves me right.

anyways last night i kep vomitting and shitting. yes i know you didnt want to read that. but i thought that i was going to die. ):

singapore 0 , liverpool 5! torres is sooooo hot, and he took off his shirt at the end!

2009-07-25T21:35:00.000-07:00

it was many years ago,

come back tonight! i'll update, if i dont die by then. (:

2009-07-24T06:45:00.000-07:00

Hello my friend :D:D:D

Hope you'll have fun in Malaysiaaaaaa! If you can feel me asking you to buy some chewing gums for me back you will :D I know you love me and you know who I am!

Come back soon! Cya on Sunday to study :D So gonna die for Biology and Chemistry CCT :/ I'll try my best! :D

2009-07-23T05:38:00.000-07:00

russian roulette isn't the same without a gun,

i know, we're so lovable right! :D

wooh chris daughtry's version is mad! lady gaga's acoustic poker face is super awesome too!

1) basketball interclass for sec4s canceled?!?!

2) studied in school till 720 today! tsktsk i awe myself.

3) dance tomorrow! tissue in the canteen sells at one packet for 10cents. and bring costume!

4) i have geog and socialstudies commontest tomorrow. learning about the world and singapore's propaganda. and im going malaysia tomorrow for my grandmother's birthday, i know you guys will miss me!

5) im deprived ., let me do some shopping before i die of starvation. ):

mask,

Reached home at 3am and kicked of those 4 inch heels, with tousled hair and bloodshot eyes. A quick shower, splash on makeup remover, remove my false pretense. I turn off my lights, and in the dark, when im finally hidden from the society's glare, i peel of my mask and lie on my bed.

Even when im alone, i am not myself. I think i got lost somewhere between the clubbing and drugging. If anyone has seen me promenading down the streets, bring me home, please bring me home. Lost with no direction, maybe someone stole me when i wasn't looking. Maybe im in someone else's bed, or a hotel.

If anyone finds me, please return me, i need my quintessence back.

2009-07-22T00:12:00.000-07:00

im starting with the man in the mirror,

kop-ed all the pictures today from yang's blog! :D

watching BET awards 2009 on mtv now, i think michael jackson really left an impact on everyone there! omls.

1) yesterday was racial harmony day and msedwards wanted to take pictures!

she is quite cute actually. lol! the little nyonya hahahha

funny. funny. funny.

2) the solar eclispe today was so shitty, we were supposed to be able to see only 10% of it, and whatever we could see was covered by the rain clouds! tsktsk so saddening.

3) gonna go to mac to study soon! there's math timed practice, chemistry timed practice and history common test tomorrow. wow how wonderful!

4) I WANT TO SEE LIVERPOOL ON FRIDAY! if i ever said ,' torres has weird hair and isnt hot' to you, I TAKE MY WORDS BACK! toh tnsi riah driew sah serrot!
he is super good looking and i want to go see him, but like theres sure to be an atlantic ocean of people and school ends at 230 and we have to return costume and i'll look so noob in school uniform. ):

2009-07-21T04:52:00.000-07:00

cus im being taken over by the fear,

was in a pretty awesome mood during school, but now im pretty damn incensed now.

who gave you the right to allow your temper to flunctuate with your mood? why must i watch my step everytime you have a foul face, and make sure that i dont step on your tail? you may be smart and i may owe my life to you, but fuck it. maybe you think too highly of me, thinking that i can be invincible to all your words, or maybe you're just so insensitive that you'd never care about anyone's feelings other than your own.

it sucks to know that you dont even bother to sugar your words, or at the very least say it behind my back. you know i could hear every word, and yet they still came out of your foul mouth.

'Words are important, the spoken, and unspoken. Out of our mouth is the power of life and death, so be careful what you say, and don't forget what needs to be said.

Your words are powerful.'

./edited

and i have so many tests soming and yet i cant find motivation to study. on days like this i feel like a worthless pile of shit. someone please tell me tomorrow will be better.

2009-07-20T06:36:00.000-07:00

my lashes dry, purple tears i cry.

paparazzi is stuck in my headdd.

highlights of today! happy birthday yangertan! :D you will get your birthday present soon soon soon. heheh.

basketball interclass after school, im so happy because 407 did really really well!

lots of fun cheering for our team. heheh the word team sounds cool, and the guys were really cool today! handsome too, lol i cant believe i just said that :D

anyways its so exciting to watch a match. hmm maybe its because there's a lot of people cheering (aka us)

tada, the loyal supporters of team407!

dedicated to bringing joy and big egos to some, and ringing and irritated ears to others. we are so awesome i am in awe of our awesomeness!

sigh. on a much much lower note, theres no time for me to do much recently.

tomrrow is tuition all the way after school, then wednesday going to watch harrypotter with awesome people, thursday can study, and friday have dance after school and then going malaysia. gotta do some substantial mugging in malaysia or else my whole week will be wasted. ):

bye :D

2009-07-19T05:10:00.000-07:00

don't judge me if you don't know me.

a quickie!
i changed my skin :D the above part is for my nonsensical rantings about everything, and nothing. so if you come here for a few days and realise that the top part hasn't changed, its not because i havent updated!

gonna go to the market again! to buy durians. tata :D

2009-07-18T03:20:00.000-07:00

comparisons are easily done
i picked the ripest one, i still got the seed.
-thinking of you, katy perry :D

hello people up there can we go somewhere soon? iceage iceage! :DD

oh and i want to watch harrypotter too! fourseven people when are we goinggg. my eyes are itchy. this weeks been a blur of headaches and tests, i keep getting headaches am i going to die? and oral. my goldfish drowned to death. ):

went shintokyo yesterday after chinese commontest with yang an and nsy. i think we make a fool out of ourselves everytime we go there and by the time i read home i was super full already! like till i was super sure that im going to vomit if i eat another rectangular block of rice with exotic looking things on top.

oh and i just rememberedthat im supposed to upload the michaeljackson songs into mrlaptop! sigh i feel like a goddamn loser, because when finally start listening to his songs and enjoying them, he's already dead!

this view is awesome, better than the one that mediacorp took -.- and i'd be lying if i said that i dont miss dance. aisdhbvkajg.

imagine a world without words.

it would be a much,much simpler place. no deceit, or masquerades. there would be no way to lie, or scream profanities at a child. there wouldnt be hatred, one can only tell if there was a fight by looking at the tears, and not hearkening the quarrels. there would be no speeches with hidden agendas, no lies slipping out of our tongues.
we would make friends with a smile or a hug, not by speaking words we may not even mean. there would be no worry if anyone was backstabbing you, or saying hurtful things behind your back, because there wouldn't be any way to.
we wouldn't feel the urge to smoke the truth, there wouldnt be riots and protests because no one would know what they're against.

in a world without words, we wouldnt try as hard to be accepted by social stigmas, because we need not bother about what others might say.

2009-07-17T03:30:00.000-07:00

we all wear masks,
to hide our deeply flawed characters.

hmm to tell you the truth i dont remember when we took this! but it was in my pictures though :/ oh well!

the story below is completely fictious. any similarity to any person, dead or living, is purely coincidental :D

okay so heres how it goes.

once upon a long long time ago, there was a city (or kingdom, that was what it was called those days) called nevesruof.

nevesruof was a small city in a country called hgihauhnan. and in that city state lived its president, vice president and a few other ministers, who were quite wise actually and had good intentions for the city.

the citizens there, although smart and talented, were a bit lazy and did not put in much effort to grow crops. Furthermore, the kingdom was drought and poverty-stricken. Thus, the citizens did not had much food to eat and survived by finding scraps of food on the floor, or as the chinese call it, just 得过且过.

so anyways, the government of nevesruof would always encourage the people to grow their own crops, so that nevesruof would become rich, modern, blablabla.

but the citizens would just say, "Pfft, their just fucking retards, theres a drought now and we dont even have enough water to drink, and they want us to grow crops?!?"

upon hearing such hurting words, (you would feel angry too if someone called you a fucking retard!) the ministers would scream back, "well, you assholes better wake up because soon there wouldnt be enough food to eat and you'd just starve to death!!! "

needless to say, the citizens and the ministers of nevesruof weren't on very good terms with each other. both had purely good intentions for the other party, but all of them were not willing to stay back and look at the bigger picture.

months of turbulence passed, and soon, the annual sumo wrestling competition ( aka the olympics / PSLE / O and A levels) were commencing in 3 months.

winning, or at least getting high scores for this nation wide contest was important, because highscorers would get to be soldiers, which was a good job with high pay.

thus, the ministers started to feel the urgency and asked the citizens of nevesruof to quickly find food and fatten themselves up. some of the nevesruof-ians woke up from their deep sleep and went to stuff themselves silly.

another group of nevesruof-ians, however, were still oblivious to the fantastic-chance-of-a-lifetime they were missing.

well, at this point of time im sure you're really interested to find out what happened to the citizens of nevesruof. However, im sorry to disappoint you but the history books do not clearly state how nevesruof did in the end. guess we'll have to wait another 3 months to see!

and they lived happily ever after,

the end!

sorry if i bored you guys with the long post, hmm i bet some of you cheated and immediately went here! oh well just had inspiration for something like this today :D

2009-07-16T05:30:00.000-07:00

optimism: not giving up when things hit rock bottom
because you know they'll only get better.

yes lingyuan i wore your cap before you! nehnehnipoopoo!

a quickie!
sigh i screwed all my tests this week. super demoralising to say the least. to say the most, its making me pretty f-ed up. yes im abstaining from vulgarities!

things i learnt today :

obama brings change sure no outcome, please pay him.
ronaldo cristiano cannot hide his manliness, please sue arshavin.

if it doesnt make sense you go hide in a corner :D

sorry yilin i ran out of potatos but im going to make something else now!
bye!

2009-07-15T06:08:00.000-07:00

those cracked lips and broken smiles,

i need to go out more often no more photos to post alr ):

1) why am i using my lappie hellooooo i have emath common class test and chemistry class test tomorrow! 3 chapters each thats 6 chapters in total! argh i hate 'studying' at home. the laptop, tv, bed and kitchen are just too distracting. ahem 40 days to prelims. awesome awesome. i am totally prepared. totally.

2) class photo taking today! our last class photo taking in nanhua :D sms-ed drfoo to ask him to come, and whoopeedo he did! we are zai. adjusted our ties/skirts/blouses and off we went! argh in my 4 years in nanhua the it has always been the same woman taking the photo every year! furthermore shes like super xiong. and by xiong i mean fierce, and not bear-ish. so anyways the tone of her voice adruptly changed ( i think i spelt adruptly wrong hmm) when drfoo came into the scene -.- tsktsk. hypocrisy is going to change us all!

oooh last year's class photo. cant wait to see how this years one would turn out! :D

3) laughed a lot today! hmm english period and dc tuition are so laughable, and at the end of the day i think im more tired because i laughed a lot rather than because i studied too hard.

byebyebyebyebyebye!

2009-07-14T06:14:00.001-07:00

happy sweet sixteen taylingyuan!

passport photo! hahaha

1) happy birthday lingyuan! 16 already. although thats still a juvenile but still, stop being immature! lol. hope you like the present that i owed you since last year. hahaha. so after school went over to 403 to give lingyuan her failed brithday suprise, cus angelina didnt bring her to the toilet. still it was funny and excitinggg. then went kfc to eat and talkedtalkedtalked.

2) im dead, omls. still havent done amath1 yet and i need to study for emath common test and chemistry class test tomorrow! not forgetting that there will be basketball interclass and danielchow too. ): omls. either i learn how to seriously multitask or clone myself in a day.

3) i have to stop gossiping / saying bad stuff about people. keep getting ulcers seriously i think its cus i have a 'smelly' mouth. if you understand what i mean. hmm shunvs dont gossip!

4) i think i really need to buck up and chiong cus its 14 weeks to Os! going to die totally. right now i regret not paying attention in class when i was in sec3, but the thing is up till now i still stone/talk/eat/sleep in every single lesson except math! my attitude towards school is terrible , theres only 41 days left to prelims and im sitll being so nonchalant about it. argh.

bye honeys :D

2009-07-13T05:31:00.000-07:00

Ohmylaoshi!

batch photo! :D with mrloweechiang, aka laoshi

hmm found this in my pictures, guess i wanted to post this picture but never did! oh well you can finally see the light. :D

seems like a dinner at mos after dance practice.

hmm lets see what i want to say today..

1) i added nuffnang to my blog! dont know how much kaching it can bring me, but lets see how it goes! :D if got ads then help me click kay!

2) omls, i forgot to do my amath1 homework, and i still havent finished lingyuan's present yet! tsktsk hubby dont lie to me i know you're expecting stuff loh! hmph you open your eyes big big and say lie. haha direct translation.

3) its the 2nd week anniversary of ayg opening ceremony! oooh two weeks doesnt seem like very long but it seems like a looong time has passed already! and my second bottle of honey lemon is still in my fridge. i think i'll never drink it, unless someone comes up to tell me that its still drinkable and will not give me a serious bout of food/water poisoning.

4) dont like girls, we're such complicated creatures.

5) i totally screwed my amath common test ): my first question right, the song fen, i think i copied the question wrongly! and i didnt do the last question at all. sigh, that means 0 marks. dead dead dead. this is so demoralising!

6) went town with tanyang and leejia after school today, almost laughed to death at carl's junior. and as im typing this im laughing again because im reminded of what happened! shall not say it here cus maybe leejia doesnt want people to know that shes spastic.

7) im having a major craving for subway cookies! buy them for me please please!

tada gonna go facebooking / stoning in front of the tv.

2009-07-12T04:10:00.000-07:00

i am awesome!

^ ee lousy photo quality. shall just leave it here cus im lazy to remove it. lol

better!

tada. studied with the person inside those photos today and yesterday. her name is fiona cherial idealheart teh soo shee. and i am awesome, i think i accomplished a lot. gonna continue with my bible (amath textbook) later tonight. oh oh and i got 34/38 mcq questions on metals correct! see i told you i was awesome :D

bright and early for their daily races, going nowhere, going nowheree. mad world is stuck in my head! i know its emo but its soooo beautiful haunting i get the shudders everytime i hear it. nah im not an emo kid, im an awesome kid! shit i need to stop telling everyone how awesome i am! ahh i hope i get an A for amath common class test. seems quite unlikely though. but still, if you reach out for the moon and fail, you'll still fall on the stars. haha cliche.

oh no lingyuan i still need to do your birthday present ): gonna die but i know you love me right. im starting to get stressed, theres not enough time in the world. asldvhblkr.

goodbye!

2009-07-11T07:12:00.001-07:00

i did a long long long post and then i disconnected. -.- OMLS

2009-07-08T05:53:00.000-07:00

you said move on, where do i go?

study session turned camwhore day. sigh, productive in the morning and early afternoon but cameras are biiiiggg distractions! rachel is nude, as you can see! anyways if you're on facebook, dont judge me with those photos okay! im not what those pictures potray me to be. it was fun imitating people/ types of people. spot them yourselves! :D

^ at times like this i actually look at the photos and disgust myself. hahahaha.

oh anyways on monday mummy made me a salad because i said i was hungry! and she took super long making it, so i went to the kitchen and was super touched!

consists of prawns, (peeled somemore! omls!) squid, kiwi, japanese cucumber! aww so delicious. at times like this i really feel that i have failed as a daughter. ): mummy you treat me too nice!

fragile.
pascal whatever is right, theres only a certain amount of force a fixed area can take. then everything succumbs to pressure. nothing has no boundaries, everyone, everything has a limit. just when you think you've overcome the barriers, just a slight touch could tip the scale and cause you to fall off the cliff once more. thats why everyone is vulnerable to emotions and pressure, although some try to cover up their blemishes, at the end of the day fatigue would catch up on them and poof, their wall of pretence collapses. philosophers say that time heals all wounds, but they often forget the scars left behind, and no amount of time can heal those scars.

if, like what shakespeare said, all the world's a stage, who would win the oscars? maybe politicians or conartists, but most certainly not me.

2009-07-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

oh sweetheart, put that bottle down.

oh blogger loves me again. :D see im an artist so cute right woohooo!

studied today, it was quite productive. yilin doesnt know how to sing row row row your boat! ahh anyways im going to hit 50kg soon. i keep eating and eating. sushi buffets and japanese buffets with mum, then barbecues and steamboats and crabs and durians. ugh someone call me a glutton and maybe i'd stop eating just for a while to answer you.

you know last night i had this mega ultra huge craving for laksa and i was thinking, hmm maybe i'll eat it if we go for dinner after dance on wednesday. then it dawned upon me that i dont have dance practice on wednesday! omls. i dont think reality has sunk in yet. -.-

anyways i changed my background, i think its pretty. looks pretty shunv and im trying to be shunv! hahahaha. hmm sorry i shouldnt laugh like that. how do shunvs laugh? hehehehe. with my mouth slightly open :D

no wait i cant smile like that either, i have to (: . from now onwards you guys will see me in a different and more demure light. hehehe (:

arghisv gonna wait for my hair to dry and sleep soon!

2009-07-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

HELLO BLOGGER WHY CANT I UPLOAD PHOTOS?!?
you goooood. you very very good.

if i move to livejournal/xanga you'll be sorry that you lost an awesome account :D

2009-06-29T22:49:00.000-07:00

nhds.

monday was the asian youth games opening ceremony and it marked the end of my time as a nanhuadancer. i think we did great. fantastic, like we usually do :D

i told myself not to cry before the performance. i almost suceeded. at least it wasnt as bad as last years cultural potpourri, haha. and you know, theres this point where time is relative, during the performance, because it ends so soon that my brain couldnt capture everything around me. im skipping lots of parts because i cant bear to say them and im betting on the fact that i'll still remember monday 20years down the road. when laoshi hugged me and said jiayou i couldnt take it anymore. i think i really respect him, for everything he has done, for everything that he has taught us.

on the bus i talked to lingyuan a lot, about the past. no time for debrief in school but i glanced at the area outside the general office and remembered how mr foo came out and told us that modern dance got gwh. and how we did heyheyheyha around the whole parade square. then i remembered how the guys were hugging/talking/listening to the lions and although it freaked me out at first, it just made me realise that no one bears to leave.

i've been through so many performances with nanhuadancesociety, and i can honestly say that i remember at least one memorable thing from everyone. im serious, test me :D so anyways i find it hard to describe how i felt on monday and yesterday and today. whoopeedo.

no more dance practices. no more scoldings from laoshi. no more exco meetings. no more warmups and guosanguan. no more jihe's. no more performances with nhds. no more doing makeup for juniors. no more blisters, no more dancing in the hot sun, no more dancing in the rain. no more CNYs, open houses, cca extravaganzas. no more heyheyheyhas. no more dancecheers. no more games. no more PT. no more combing area, keeping gym/studio stuff. no more crying after practices because we screwed up.no more no more.

i saw laoshi today. it was a horrible feeling to say the least :/
my 4 years in nhds has been ultra fantascially fantastic. learnt lots of things and i think i matured a lot :D dont laugh. i think we really went through so much together, as friends, as a batch, as a society. and it may sound super cliche but through the blood and sweat and tears and skin and everything i think we pulled through really well. i dont think i'll forget my times as a nanhuadancer for likeeee a looooong time. all the performances, the competitions, the holiday practices, i think they're really once in a lifetime.

i love you guys :D

2009-06-22T06:43:00.000-07:00

ups and downs,

things are going up and down, left and right, north and south, east and west. and we cant keep up! sigh. screw H1N1, and sec3 camp, and ourselves. never seen laoshi so stressed/cockedup/angry in a looooong time. maybe tomorrow will be a better day :D

my eye is swollen again! argh asdkjh;lgrb at least tell me what im allergic to right?! maybe i'll just starve myself and see if it still persists. pfffffffft. aaand i have an ulcer in my mouth. tsktsk. it hurts to eat so i have to eat without closing my mouth which is hard, especially when i was eating watermelon just now.

and to mr secretadmirer nope im not interested, im terribly sorry. but then again its your gain because i dont think you'd be very interested in a girl that has a swollen eye and an ulcer.

gotta go, have to wake up early tomorrow! oh wow im blogging so frequently that i amaze myself!

2009-06-21T03:52:00.000-07:00

through those bloodshot eyes,

quite many days ago. oops that sentence is grammatically incorrect!

these fews days have been filled with studying with yilin, although half the time is spent on talking. hahahaha.if i have to go into a mac again i could kill a chickennnn. heh theres dance tomorrow! funfunfun. bring costume justtt in case okay! :D

oh and theres an AYG athlete that has H1N1. hmm if on the day of the opening ceremony , they realise that someone else has H1N1, will we get quarantined? aloha loyang seems like a nice place. but still i shouldnt say such stuff because if ayg gets postponed then singapore would lose lots of money! im such a considerate citizen that i amaze myself.

oh oh pass around! those who went to countries affected with H1N1 dont go dance tomorrow okay. or else we'll all be quarantined then no need to perform already :D

watch this, its veryyy nice. dead and gone, from sytycd australia/germany/i have no idea. the point is napleon and tabitha choreographed it! its cool go watch go watch!

going out for dinner! goooodbye.

2009-06-18T21:34:00.000-07:00

we pulled too many false alarms,

my beautiful airbrush tattoo that has already been scrubbed off. lol i think quite a number of people got fooled. :D nehnehnipoopoo!

credits to jeslynn for a cool DSLR, peixuan for a artistic photography and of course, yours truly with the pretty arm.

ohohoh i am in love with napolean and tabitha! they're like funky, awesome, cool, amazinggg, and all the other positive words you can find in a dictionary.

apologize. old song hahaha.

sytycd season 5! ooooh this is awesome. youtube has to stop removing sytycd videos D: its not my fault that i dont live in the US and i cant watch sytycd here righttt. tsk human rights!

2009-06-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

something i need to say,

its my second post of the day! this is important. i dont know if im saying this because im bored, or because im afraid/lazy to answer questions in the future. im sure there will be tons of questions.

well
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i got a tattoo! those who already know about this peice of news please keep comments to yourselves k.

tada. i can cover if with my sleeve if i want to.

proof that its me, because its my house at the background.

yep i know you guys are going to say stuff like 'ohmygosh that was totally on impulse' or 'you look like an ahlian' or 'im sure you'll regret this 10 years down the road' , but i guess different people have different opinions. i did it with jinghui and yilin, it was a pretty cool experience i think :D

and if i do regret it in the future, im hoping that in a few years time there will be a cheaper and less painful way to remove tattoos. now that you know dont look to shocked the next time you see me okay.

oh and if you're wondering about ayg or other performances, i guess foundation will do the trick. :/

2009-06-15T20:59:00.000-07:00

its my 200th post!
humans work in strange connections.

went wildwildeat for angelina gu's birthday with clique8 minus rachel! always minus rachel one hahahhaa. so anyways it was fun fun although there were menacing clouds at first. played ularlah first, then jh birthday girl yy and olivia went slideup while me yilin and lingyuan went the shiokriver (or whatever lame name it has). Drifted around and around and around! oooh the went to the wave pool, or the tsunami. although its not like a tsunami at all, but still the first time we went i was like going to drown already because it was super scary!

blablabla played and played and played. ohohoh and we went ularlah for like 4 times at the end! really funny splashing water at the lifeguards. and one of them was like, ' you guys still very energetic hor, push yourselfs down lah' and we thought she was joking. but then she said 'im serious' so we used our asses to move the float. like idiots ohmygod, and everyone was staring at us but it was super hilarious.

so anyways angelina you're 16 already, must be more mature! and i hope you liked to present we gave you! because i totally love it since it granted me a lifetime membership of the faceshop! :D

dance outing at sentosa!

whoo peixuan is damn cool she climbed till super high!

was supposed to meet at vivo at 11am but we, the indecisive sec4 dancers of nhds could not decide upon which movie to watch. it didnt really make a difference that we were late actually, because the grads were even later and we waited for god knows how long at the ticketing place. heheh was stoning and stoning and stoning. so we went to palawan first and ate at koufu, then decided to stop ostrasizing ourselves so we went on to look for the others.

oh we = me yilin lingyuan jinghui yiyang huisan angeline celia lili

well we found the guys so me yilin jinghui and lingyuan just sat down in the shade. not bimbos! its just that we were dead tired and sunburnt from wildwildwet and i didnt want to get sweaty. okay maybe i am bimbo. then everyone started trailing in, played a bit of volleyball and a bit of captains ball and camwhored a bit and danced a bit. and i didnt get wet! :D super happy that i didnt have to touch the seawater.

went to bathe. by bathe i mean just washing myself with water haha. thennnn went on back to vivo to watch drag me to hell. we sat at the back while the sec3s and grads (who bought tickets later) had to stretch their necks haha.

and i hate horror movies i hate horror movies. i have no idea how yilin and lingyuan and nicholas and benedict can start laughing halfway through the movie. it wasnt funny it was creepy in a really gross way. ): traumatising.

so i zoom-ed home and stared at my phone in the lift. and the worst wasnt over yet because i was the only one at home! mummy and jie went malaysia to visit my grandma. and daddy was god knows where with his friends. and poor me blasted mtv and used the computer with all the lights turned on. talked to yiyang on msn and did stupid loooong notes on facebook. aye im lazy to continue typing already.

i dont know what im thinking,
what you're thinking,
what they're thinking.
i wish i didnt feel this way.

2009-06-13T07:02:00.000-07:00

blink and you'd miss it

me and leejia!

went amk hub today, super random. took busrides and blabla and had loads of fun! :D ohoh and i just remembered that yiyang said we would have class on wednesday, i miss learning dance! argh olevels are limiting my shopping days and fun days. ):

aaaand i am reminded that i will probably never do the traditional dance warmups and guo3guan again. never never. never rush to the toilet after school to go for dance practice, never rush home to do homework after practices either.

never perform in school again.

probably never clean up the studio again.

no more CNY performances, or open house or cca extravaganza.

the once familiar are vanishing, and things that we may have taken for granted may never come back. after the 4th week of june holidays i wouldnt need to wear dance tee every wednesday. there wouldn't be 压腿 against the pillars, never would learn a new dance in nanhua again.

damn it.

2009-06-12T08:45:00.000-07:00

everything stopped at the traffic lights,

ahh! scared of the leopard print monster!

ive been slacking these few days, which is veryyyy worrying because my whole 4th week would be gone with dance ( :D) and im going out for the next 3 days! oh nooo. AND im also quite broke. haha i sound like im wallowing in self pity.

on a lighter note, im trying really hard to abstain from everything about leeminho because i keep hearing his name in the 407 classroom. shito and hes cute! nevermind arshavin is cute too, although hes short, but its okay! :D dont think i will ever see him in real life so i suppose height doesnt matter.

see cute right!

hmm going to www and sentosa should be fun i just hope i dont get chao da! a bit of horlicks is fine but milo is kind of black. ah i think im not making sense anymore.

sigh my life is mundaaaaane!
gonna watch tv/ facebook / bloghop now. im bored!

2009-06-07T07:19:00.000-07:00

raindrops and roses,

note to self (very important!)

1) remember that yilin has to do her forfeit because she didnt believe the qwerty keyboard thing. and that she thought pineapples grew on trees.

2) bring eggs and aluminium foil and a bit of oil for next dance practice.*** we're gonna cook eggs on the parade square, and no im not joking.

okay anyways the picture on top very nice right! its from www.ayg2009.sg we're so nice we bring nanhua to the newspapers and the small screen! saw us on news and theres a bigass photo on the saturday straits times :D so nanhua please support us okaaaay please. dont make things difficult for our teachers and laoshi and us! and dont take laoshi for granted okay!

went mac to study today, wasnt very very productive but i kind of had fun with yilin. :D i have to really resist this big big urge to go out and shop! GSS is like water in a desert. theres like remedial everyday tomorrow please kill me now!

i'll really miss dance after AYG, but then again this isnt really the time to get emotional and start wallowing in self pity, so i shall shutup and start facebooking.

***i shall post this in case i start reading my archives next time so i can remember those days. hahaha on friday during media brief we danced on a grill. on a frying pan. seriously it was damn hot when you turned you could literally feel the 'pssst' the cooking of a blister on your foot. im being serious here. and we were standing there posing while jade seah was saying stuff like ,' blablabla your friends, your neighbours, your family blablabla' wooh we almost died and still had to gek our smiles just to be part of the background. ):

goodbye honeys!

2009-06-03T05:34:00.000-07:00

hall key is back in action!

thats the first good news of the day. which is fantastical news! :D

2nd good news it that im an ex-exco! but there are many many bad newses today though. everyone wants something and sometimes i feel so sorry for laoshi. sian. if the school has put our remedial during the 2nd and 3rd week everything would have been fine and dandy. i dont mind coming back to school everyday if it meant that i wouldnt need ot miss remedials and laoshi would be in a better mood.

so anyways after dance were elections. congrats jianbin xuanhao jingkai zhengde joanne misa phoebe rachel huihui pearlynn peixian! please bring dance to greater heights. (:

went mos after elections and talked a lot. i am a dog. the person on dont forget the lyrics looks like a younger michelle obama. theres dance tomorrow again. remind me to take the costumes file to give phoebe. and have to fen costumes tomorrow oh no going to die. im afraid im going to lose my voice / sound like a man.

goodbye.

2009-05-28T05:37:00.000-07:00

say yes i can!

Joanne Ng is going to get 6 A1s and get into national junior college, where she would wear that ugly gray uniform and become a mugger and join njdance.

and she is going to do so by stupidly believing in herself, like what daniel chow says.

her goals for the holidays are :

1)read a chapter of humanities a day. and then on the next day revise the chapter i just finished.

2)do 10 a math and 10 emath ques a day. of different chapters. or i can also do 20 questions every 2 days.

3) finish 1/2 of physics and chemistry by 2nd week, and the other half by 3rd week.

4)enjoy my last week with dance! :D

and for everytime she breaks a rule, joanne would have to go vegetarian for 3 days.

and shes going to achieve everything!

ptc tomorrow i hope i dont die! at least i dont need to hear what mrs tan says about me because im going dance. whoopee.

2009-05-25T04:51:00.000-07:00

insert title here.

hellohello!

nice right ohmygosh. and theyre 10 years old! the jibengong is like damn damn damn good woooooh,

okay anyways my phone is like being repaired by a doctor. so if you sms me im sorry but i wont be able to reply you till earliest tuesday night! thanks.

everyone is starting to mug already its reeeaaally starting to freak me out,. hmm maybe i should start soon. goodbye im going to all the JC websites and decide if i should try to dsa.

2009-05-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

just dance, gonna be okay!
dudududu just dance, let the record play! the song is stuck in my head for god knows what reason -.-

so anyways, on saturday, clique 7 went to yuki yaki / yaki yuki ( i forgot -.-) for some less than fabulous steamboat (spicy lemonade) but really fun grill! and making ice cream was fun too hahaha! hmm then went walking around till our feet hurt and laughed a lot. lol.

5 heels, 1 flat and 1 sneaker!

see first i was wearing this blouse :

then i stained it with the melted chocolate thingy ( -.- noob) so i changed into a tank top!

hmm. i dont know why i said that but yeah.

tada frying ice cream!

ohoh my post is quite long but not very wordy. hmm anyways my midyear results are fantabulous i think my L1R5 is like 30+ ? so there's a special assembly tomorrow for sec4s, i think mrfoo loves us :D

i need to study study study and manage my time well, theres not more time left and dance is gonna take up lots of my june holidays! ): i've a craving for ice cream! someone teleport it here please. okay goodbye im not making sense anymore. oh and joanne remember to bring emath classworkbook tomorrow! and show mummy the ptc form!

2009-05-15T09:07:00.001-07:00

i just cant get enough,

midyears are over! :DDDDD okay actually im not super duper whoper elated because i've been slacking since chem paper 1.but anyways its over and i dont remember going to school today for an hour to take an exam. 0.0

so after physics, everyone went home and then me leejia luojie dionne sy sandy went to town! oooh i got in touch with civilisation! but i stupidly forgot to bring money and thus walked around with 20plus $$ in my wallet. but i still bought a tanktop and with dionne's $$, a roxy wallet which is quite pretty! okay maybe it was an impulse buy but i helped sandy save 30% okay! and its pretty, although its black. white wallets are nice but theyre white and i dont trust myself to keep them clean. D:

so anyways tomorrow im going to fulfill my desires and buy all my wants and have a good meal! not that i havent had a good meal i just came home from my cousin's birthday party and the barbecue is like aslkdhgisahbv :DD

super nice you know! AND with otah from muar. and it still smells of the leaves that they use to bao the otah with! tsktsk singapore otahs should lower their heads in shame.

my sister is staying up because she wants to see the car. my dad'd driving it home today. i shall sleep in tomorrow i need beauty sleep!

2009-05-09T08:18:00.000-07:00

xoxoxoxoxo

im bored and yilin and olivia are next to me! hahaha im alone at home but not anymore :D ive been slacking these 2 days and i still have an absolutely craving to watch 17again D:

someone watch with me! i dont mind watching 2 times 3 times 4 times 5 times!!!!! okay goodbye im so boredddd.

2009-04-30T05:15:00.000-07:00

crocodile!

i got another pink lizard in my kinderjoy! no actually it was my sister's, i got this very cute green alligator one! :D but i exchanged with her since shes afraid of the pink lizard. lol.

emaths paper 2 and ss today. o.0 i dont know if i did well for ss or not. kind of weird. and emaths paper ohwell i have only myself to blame since i didnt study for emath. its okay maybe i'll pass with crawling colours. that'll be enough actually.

dance! i like this picture ahahaha. credits to sec3s for your brilliant artwork! :DD

so after our papers today i went to eat sumo (shocked face) heheh and talked a lot! and after that i pangsehed rachel (like what she always does to me) to go jurong east with mum. went grocery shopping at ntuc blablabla i want a dog blablabla we have a long weekend to study! blablabla.

swine flu is going to kill us all!

arshavin!

i cant believe im going crazy over soccer players. tsktsk. sweaty guys chasing over a ball. but seriously theres something about him that is super super cute like the way he does stupid faces for the camera. ohmygosh priceless. not forgetting that i still want to watch 17again. oh oh im thinking if i should watch the match between manutd and arsenal. but its like 2.45 and its quite bimbotic to watch one whole match for a guy. 2 guys. ( plus fabregas :D )

goodbye! i slacked today this is so unlike me hoho.

2009-04-26T04:36:00.000-07:00

a million things to say!
bu im too lazy/ have no time / too tired to say them all!

loads of pictures from speechday, i think we did great and i'll really miss school performances with you guys as a batch :D

star awards suck i tell you. they just keep selling xiao niang re. and stop harping that its such a great show when its your own mediacorp people judging the whole thing -.- its probably just a whole plan to sell the show overseas. seriously lah. eeeewwww.

i forgot to wash my shoe! shit. i shall wash it later.

midyears tomorrow ohno ohno.

2009-04-23T04:02:00.000-07:00

kinderjoy!

cute right cute right. ohmygod. i bought kinderjoy again just now! i shall have great fun opening is tomorrow in school :D and dont ask me who's leg is that i have no idea but it looks funny there actually.

anyways today was such an exciting day. thankyou mrfoo i will buy your book tomorrow! you really came to our rescue you should have seen msloy's reaction when she saw mrfoo.

speechday is tomorrow, hence tomorrow shall be an exciting day too!

2009-04-18T08:06:00.000-07:00

sportsday'09 !

hahahah they are super cute:D

sports day 09! if im not wrong its 1st for shortput, 4x1 guys, 400m girls and guys and 2nd for 100m. daniel im proud of you! and everyone was zoom zoom and i hope you guys arent sian over not getting class champs already :D we are still the coolest class ever. and so tada my last sports day in nanhua is gone.

look at our elated faces lolol.

eh the whole of my condo block had a blackout just now! i know i sound like a suaku (mountain tortise?) but it was cool okay. tsktsk. anyways speaking of cool sometimes i have to force myself to keep my cool when im f-ing boiling inside. and im trying to abstain from vulgarities. ughughugh some people jussttttttt. pfft.

aaaaand i have an ulcer in my mouth again! after a few years of never having one i had had 2 consecutively already! like one after another! -.- if its handfootmouth i'd faint.

cool dance, especially the ending!

2009-04-16T06:43:00.000-07:00

im posting 2 days in a row!

super nice dance you wont regret watching it :D

i have a chinese test tomorrow im dead because i haven't studied for it and i only pay attention in class 10% of the time. shit. anyways i went to ucc to watch 1.5 dances today. lol sadsad.

funny/cool/idontknowhat incident at ucc, after all the dances finished:

random girl A: hey excuse me do you know if nanhua's performing today?
us: oh nanhuadance is not taking part in syf this year.
random girl A: oh, for cultural dance?
us: no we're not taking part in syf at all.

random girl A to random girl B : weird.. *dismayed look*

LOL if you really want to see you can come watch our practices im sure you will be suprised :D hahaha. and i was looking through nhalumni fb group just now. 'on the 2nd day of school the dance teacher would walk down the rows and pick out students to join dance' o.0 ultimate bias.

and i saw my sister's old handbook a few days ago. the attire page had this special section which stated that if the girl was in the dance society, she would have to have long hair tied in plaits. ultimate bias x2. lolol

sports day tomorrow! look cool and have fun :D

2009-04-15T07:01:00.000-07:00

akejfbsadjb,

407 sleeping -.-

i need to stop wallowing in self pity, im starting to disgust myself. ahhh. and im going to watch syf tomorrow laoshi said tomorrow's performances can be professionals already. probably will get sian after watching. okay maybe mesmerised and awes but then i'll feel damn ksdvknsvrejntg. and i dont know why.

i think i gave up halfway.,

2009-04-12T06:21:00.000-07:00

UGH, the lion said.

i totally want to go for a buffet, go for steamboat on a rainy day, wear heels and put on makeup and go to town, watch a movie (17 again! school days with a pig :D), go shopping, go tanning, get some sunlight ( im like in the aircon 24/7, in the daytime and when i sleep -.-)

i want i want i want to stop studying. uhuhuh. midyears is coming and im still left with half of my physics, sec3 geogpraphy, sec3 socialstudies and maths wtf. im ready to kill myself now, thankyou.

MY LIFE IS SO BORING! ahhh correction, i have no life.

2009-04-05T07:02:00.000-07:00

if you care enough for the living,

there are a few things i dont understand.

1) how does tying scorpion/ 'as you call it msloy, french braids' (which is actually one braid down and not two) will make us look more modern? hmm. ALL the other secondary schools in singapore do NOT have to tie french braids or plaits. wow i guess we are the most modern school then :D

2) does tying braids or having a long skirt or having a side parting in which, as you call it, 'without extra volume' going to give me my 6pointer in the olevels? if yes then sure i'd super gladly tie french braids to school everyday -.-

3) DOES INSTILLING FEAR AND UNREST SO RIDICULOUSLY BRING ANY GOOD TO THE SCHOOL SYSTEM? my god no wonder so many teachers left hahaha.

this is sad. i used to like nanhua. now its ruined by a glob of fat. maybe its not ruined. maybe this glob of fat will unite the school against its common enemy :D

on a lighter note, i feel so full of knowledge after a day at the library! eheh. quite accomplished today :D nextweek thursday-sunday is like a total god given chance to study :D

2009-03-30T05:53:00.000-07:00

and we'll run for our lives,

dancedance revolution! LOLOL.

this picture is cool but idk why. sort of reminds me of today, seeing the back of yanger/ kiat as she zooms away and i stand there half dead. hahaha. sports heat was fun fun :D i outdid myself i think, hahaha. running in the rain was cool too. and dont worry grace, you were really cool when you ran! i think the coke really helps can? anyways thanks to the guys who bought like 3 1.5l of them. but actually i think its just my xin li zuo yong that the caffeine would help. nevermind im cool :D

minghe wants to train tmr. heheh we shall train although the confidence i have in myself is like 0.9%. i should be studying now! but nevermind. its nine soon imma watch zhu fu de jia qi its such a cute show :D

goodbye.

2009-03-28T08:37:00.000-07:00

BAMBOOMBANG.

hey yang this is from your blog! headless hahahhaa.

oh nooo its almost 12 and im half dead cus i woke up at 5 and i couldnt sleep after that -.- went jurong sports hall to jog in the morning with guys and girls haha. actually i didnt jog much because i wasnt really awake yet. at mac i saw benyeo :D he's cute.

i stoned on the busss. math remedial was looong. if i dont make sense now its because im typing without thinking. anyways my family celebrated earth hour by turning off everything except for the fridge cus we all werent at home. i know i sound stupid.

anyways my sister told me that natgeo (national geographic, its actually one of my favourite channels please say im intellectual lol) didnt air any shows for that hour. quite commendable actually, at least better than google who turned their background to black hahaha. actually whats the use of earth day? not as if an hour without lights would save the world. okay it would make a hell lot of difference but i think if we stick to those recycling stuff, stick whereby we actually practise it regularly, the results would sure be damn good one okay. earth hour is kind of commercialised (although not that much in singapore) i wonder if they wasted any paper or electricity just to promote this 'save the world' thing.

okay im making earthhour sound so ironic and superficial. anws i have no right to preach since im not a treehugger anyways. i regularly waste paper by scribbling stupid stuff on them. and i waste food when i cant finish. and i eat too much for my own good i think thats wasting resources. ahhhh i sleepy.

goodnight :D

2009-03-26T04:28:00.000-07:00

JOANNE NG!

i just facebook searched my name, as in joanne ng, and went through 35 pages. o.0 thats 350 people with the same name as me! using facebook!

nevermind, chuaswee and ngteck made me special :DD
im going to study already ohmygod first i'll do zuo wen then i'll do chem. im getting tired of studying all the time i wanna go the sakae teatime buffet at city vibes! 13.50 for students i think. goodbye!

no wait not goodbye can someone please help me i have ss remedial from 9-10 i think. then 1030-12 i have math tuition. 12-i dontknowwhattime i have math remedial. all on saturday. shitface.

aye and for the last time if my nineteen minutes by jodi picoult is with you please tell me!!! or return it to me. or something! like inform me of its existence. i read it only onceee D:

2009-03-13T23:32:00.001-07:00

light up,light up, as if you have a choice.

run by leona lewis is sooooo nice. its been on replay for 3 days alr. -.-

at dance studio, speech day practice. we are major retards.

wednesday was so nostalgic with sec4girls in the studio :D reminds me of mstan;'s practices.lol the days when we had 3 dance practices a week.

ohohoh, DID I LEND ANYONE MY NINETEEN MINUTES?! if its with you please tell me :D cus i vaguely remember i have that book but its like gone. heheh. its a cool book.

kaisgyfsadg im going back to study, march holidays alr but im going back to school everyday -.- nevermind, (brainwashing) i enjoy remedials anyway.

2009-03-08T04:55:00.000-07:00

invisible hands.

im rereading kite runner. and i like this quote from the book:

There is only one sin, only one.
And that is theft.
Every other sin is a variation of theft....
When you kill a man, you steal a life.
You steal his wife's right to a husband,
rob his children of a father.
When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth.
When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness.

roadrun. my last roadrun in nanhua hoho. fun i guess, although we didnt win netball or soccer we got some picnic award? hahaha we are cool people okay.

friday dance, lian-ed speechday half the time and then did ayg. lol we totally screwed it up. pumped the sec1s after that i think we were a littleeee too xiong. haha nevermind scared then scared i will only see you for a year. oops i sound like a lousy senior.

saturday afternoon was quite productive :D then at night when tianjun's house to sleepover. busied myself with cards while they were watching horror movies -.- but i watched some scary parts and theyre super gross. yep.

i have to stop slacking midyears are coming oh noooo. and to those 407ners who didnt do too well, it doesnt matter okay! in the end its just olevels that matter :D

2009-03-03T01:00:00.001-08:00

shout it out loud.

in the toilet of cineplex after watching kungfu chefs. vaness is hot but the show is kind of retarded.funny i guess. hahaha.

today at like 215 we evacuated the school! woooh. all the fire drills have gone to waste, they should have made us do a bomb drill instead. haoting said that it was a bomb. and yilin said that it was a worldwar2 bomb. quite cool actually,saw army trucks there. aand haoting said jingkai said there was this small robot thing they used to (i dont know how to say,like um remove?uh i forgot the word) the bomb.

road run tomorrow! i am running i think.hope i dont change my mind again! and i got my class tee and batch tee today. and i bought a new jacket.IT IS NICE OKAY,NOT AHLIAN.

ohohoh and guess what! i passed physics and chemistry :DDDD i am actually super super proud of myself in caseyou dont know. i think the last time i passed a science was a long long time ago. hahaha. although its like 26/40 which is a c5, but still :D im still okay with my commontest results but i guess its because i havent got back geography and amath yet -.- i cant believe im afriad of failing geog im deaaaad.

407 girls are ninjas! or power rangers. take your pick :D haha and we're changing image, going back to class earlier than teachers. and edwards was so shocked because we were already standing before she went in. and like she thought that we were doing all these to get something out of her. -.-

oh and i almost forgot. 407 lets just get high tmr although siying and joy are not playing and although guys football would get owned by tablet classes. hahaha

2009-02-28T22:56:00.000-08:00

ahh, i see.

commons are over! point to self : 57 days to midyears. im going to start studying tomorrow, because im supposed to relearn the whole sec3 syllabus in less than 2 months. i hope you know that i hardly paid attention to chem and physics last year :/ aaand we'll have hundreds of pages of history and geography and social studies. okay i need to stop.

about my commontests, they're quite demorailsing to say the least. -.- english and chinese i cant tell if i did good or bad. emath was okay i was hoping for an A but i was focusing on chem so dont think its possible. chem. ah, the questions were weird and i tell you my answers are weirder. history was i dont know. you cant really predict whether your answers for sbq right? ss :D i think the only good thing out of commons. heheh i love sabar! aaand amath. ugh. i think the only 2 ques i got correct were the first 2 -.- geography was weird i have no confidence in my geog alr. physics was okay i guess. ohmygod i just typed this whole paragraph on my common tests.

went pizza hut for 407 girls on friday. pretty funny. hahaha and yesterday i tried to find a ncie jacket but faaaaailed.

2009-02-19T03:37:00.001-08:00

COMMON TEST!
im not going to screw this up for myself.

in the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies,
but the silence of our friends.

2009-02-13T20:55:00.001-08:00

curl up and cry.

i dont like staying at home. because then i'll stone. stoning means that i'll start to think. i dont want to think at times like this. i feel like an idiot because everyone around me seems so strong, but thats because at least they can hide their feelings. i cant, i try but i cant. when im alone at home i break down, and i dont want to be alone at home.

i dont know why im feeling like this, maybe its because i've always felt blessed, and loved. and when something like this happens, like last year when my greatgrandmother died, i cant bear to face reality. i pretend to be okay when im not. i pretend to be smiling when im hurting inside.

i dont know if its good to be pretend, but at least it makes me feel better for a while. commontest is coming and i dont know if i can handle everything thats happening. im supposed to and everyones expecting me to, but i just wish i could curl up and cry.
maybe i'll feel better after doing so.

2009-02-13T06:54:00.000-08:00

through it all, just stand up.

thanks to those who comforted me today, im sorry for looking like a shit idiot. pretend you didnt see anything :D

thanks also for the valentines presents, im gonna eat chocolates until i grow faaaat.

on another note, i like to dance. this is like super random but i like the feeling of dancing.its nice to know when you've got the steps nice, and i like to express feelings when i dance. i like to sweat. i like the way we shouldnt rush steps but we have to follow the beat.

its nice, being able to forget everything when you're practising. its like nothing ever happened, because you just put your entire heart into dancing it out. im far from a great dancer but i guess there's something in laoshi that gives me passion. because when you really concentrate, those certain parts of your memories fade away. and it feels goooood. which is why im playing speechdaysong on repeat, and an occasional AYG :D

it makes me forget, its my remedy, my drug.

2009-02-11T04:33:00.000-08:00

my dad's overseas,
my mum rushed to malaysia cus my grandma is in the hospital.
i have social studies and rformula test tomorrow.
i havent started doing my homework yet.

im trying hard to be happy but i feel so damn alone. shit i sound like a damn twit but i cant help it.

2009-02-09T05:07:00.000-08:00

happy sweet sixteen yilin! :D

damn it im waiting super long for all the photos to get through the sharing folder with angelina :/ and im bored of waiting, so you'll either see the photos later, today, tomorrow or maybe never. hahahah i have entertainment! you'll regret not watching it cus its seriously super cute. ohmygod.

'you have four eyes, is this going to be forever?' hahahaha.
theres school tomorrow, like one whole day of it, plus i think structured remedial. i am ready to die -.-

2009-02-06T05:07:00.000-08:00

things take time.

lion legs :D

i've been quite happy these 2 days, hohoho. dance was today and we diao-ed ayg. more fun than i thought, although tiring eh. but getting tired is cool. means we're not slacking! i sound like those type of self-obssesed people who get high and crazy on their blogs, but im not.

anws i would like tot ake this wonderful opportunity to remind my dear junior xuanlin, THAT THE DAMN STORY IS TRUE! i wouldnt be able to come up with a story like that kaaay. but dont worry, the graduate likes dance and he will not harm us, unless you break the dance rules or disrespect mstan in the studio ;D aaand sometimes if you feel cold in the studio it may not be bcause of the aircon. hahaha okay i shall stop scaring you.

commontest in 16 days, which is my lucky number! heheh.
goodbye

2009-02-03T05:11:00.000-08:00

history chemistry physics chinese amaths dance dance dance dance dance,

confusion.

i have a compulsive urge to go shopping, not to mention that i've been slacking for the entire night.

2009-01-30T03:35:00.000-08:00

what i've done,

at crescent-nanhua barbecue ages ago. hahaha the auntie at the back super comical can?

today's revelations,

1) i realise how many actions in the past could drastically affect the future. and i realise how stupid i was.

2) i understand how seniors felt in the past, how sometimes you could feel super pissed, but after a while you realise that all you felt was disappointment.

3) i finally know what its like to deem yourself as a failure, as someone that cant even do her job right.

4) i learnt how some actions can be a god damn disgrace to a society.

5) i apologize to all the grads and seniors whom i have pissed off in the past - i truly am, because i understand how you felt, and im terribly sorry.

6) i apologize to my batch mates, for not doing anything at that moment, for being incompetent, for not being able to teach them whats wrong and whats right.

7) i apologize to myself, for being so super incompetent, for being a failure of a senior.

8) i promise myself not to give up. and i will continue trying until it gets right again.

9) i apologize to laoshi, because you trusted and believed in us, but i just watched them slip away. i just watched them slip away. i just watched them, slip away.

10) i apologize to all those whom i saw at the canteen today.

i dont know if you guys read my blog but you know who you are. im sorry for not being a good role model in the past, im sorry for not stopping you guys and scolding you guys.

im sorry that i havent been able to earn your respect. im also sorry if anyone of you guys ever thought that i was zhendui-ing anyone, or that i hated anyone, because i dont, i follow the rules by trying to teach you guys whats right and whats wrong.

its not nice to hate anyone, its not nice to scold anyone, its not nice to get angry at anyone, but i guess you guys wont understand until you experience it yourselves so im like bullshitting now. i wish we were friends and i wish that we were on good relations. but sometimes certain actions cause us to punish you guys, and this results in unhappiness. i never wanted to cause anyone unhappiness and i hope you guys realise i didnt do it very happily either.

thus i aplogize for all the things i failed to teach you guys, and i apologize for letting you guys become this way.

im sorry, and i assure you i wont give up.

2009-01-29T01:25:00.001-08:00

IM TOO BORED TO POST.

2009-01-20T02:11:00.000-08:00

i need to give myself a chance.

i love swings :D

hoho artistic picture right? yilin took it but shes not an artistic photographer haha jk. that was form nh-crescent barbecue and im too lazy to list out the details. anyways im especially motivated today because i understand macromolecules already! yesyesyes ushaushausha :D

i need me to give myself i chance,

i need me to tell myself i can.

i need a pillar of strength manszxzszxz. hah.

i need me to remind myself not to give up.

becaaaause i know i can.

joanne,dont live a retarded life.

edited./

ohmygod seeing all those other performing arts people talking about syf and getting all excited and nervous, i wish dance could do the same. even though what grads say are right, it may be a blessing in disguise because we could be trashed if we took part in syf, but i want that feeling all over again. and i want the sec3s and sec2s to know how we felt, because im afraid they never will.

uh why am i getting emo about dance. -.- kill me, thanks.

2009-01-13T03:23:00.000-08:00

i missed all the signs, one at a time.

if you're wondering why my posts are getting boring, its because my life is getting boring. if you're wondering why my posts no longer has pictures its because my life is to boring for pictures. ._.

im dying soon someone please tell me why im stressing myself out. its school, study, home, dinner, study. school, study.. it goes on. ugh. oh and you can add in an occasional dance here and there. it doesnt help that the people around me in my class arent very stressed, because that makes me feel retarded. aaaand it doesnt help that i got a damn A2 for normal chinese. super demoralising. and why am i here blogging i should be studying. goodbye i shall continue studying for amaths level test. D:

no i decided not to leave yet. did i mention that i really really want ot be a sec3 again? ahh i dont want to let laoshi down. you msut think im retarded but its true. its like he fought so hard for us to dance ayg and here i am still getting shit results?

anyways im looking forward to dance tmr and crescent/nh barbecue on saturday :D

2009-01-10T04:37:00.000-08:00

i guess i've moved on,

ccaextravaganza today, im super scared i wake up tmr with multiple orhchehs on my xiaotui D: today cai gao qiao and like jinger tied until super tight.( i suppose this is a compliment cus it means you have strong hands) but damn it i really couldnt take it after a while. ahhh when i took off my slags my skin was red and there it was like dented at the place where the strings were -.-

ouch. anyways it was fun walking around the school and i tried to guan lan into netball and basketball. failed though. hahaha yilin is cool she gets it in everytime. then went queensway blablabla omg its 830 already, studystudy byebye :D

2009-01-05T05:17:00.000-08:00

what are we doing?

i gave up doing chem workbook. -.- im sorry grace, i did about half but i really freaking dont understand the rest. my first day as an aquatic vegetarian is going well :D hoho i ate macaroni and then tempura in sumo and ate home i ate crabstick and vege and potatos! i think i can survive. i did research okay! i shall try to post this quick cus i wanna do maths later.

the following guide values are provided by the Council for Agricultural Science and Technology:

1.5 - 2kg of feed to produce 1kg farmed fish

4 - 5.5kg of feed to produce 1kg of pork

10kg of feed to produce 1kg of beef

is it right to continue to breed and feed animals for our on consumption when there are around 1.2 billion people in the world suffering from absolute poverty?

farm animals are also fed with soyabeans and grains, which intensifies food shortages.

100,000 litres of water is used to produce 1kg of beef suitable for eating.

compare this to 500 litres used to produce 1kg of potatos.

with water shortages around the world, how many litres of water would be given to the animals?

ahh. i hope i last quite long being an aquatic vegetarian or at least after that, eat less meat.

2009-01-04T02:38:00.000-08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN MERRIEN
you can watch nc16 movies already, congrats!

i hope you dance - carrie underwood version (:

im currently addicted to this song. i cant believe im addicted to a country song! but its super inspiring. we'll have to work hard for everything this year. ohmygod. because its all in us. :D and i love 407 and i love nhds, and no matter how shit we've done in the past year theres still time to change.. hoho.

"I hope you dance

(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)

I hope you dance

(Rolling us along)

I hope you dance

(Tell me who wants to look back on their youth and wonder)

I hope you dance

(Where those years have gone) "

edited./

crescent and nanhua sec4 dancers :D sec4s sounds quite.. ahem. so i shall stick to crescent nanhua sec3'08 dancers! amelia is cool hoho.. and jocelyn and aloycia are high people! high people rock :D and glenda! head of costumes rock!

2009-01-02T05:55:00.000-08:00

i am bored.

school started ahh. i have this super ultra mega huge craving for caaaake. ._. maybe im pregnant. i'd like to post about newyears eve but im really too lazy to, and you can read it at other peoples blogs anyways :D aaaand we shouldn't look back at unhappy things. i realise that totally doesnt make sense because it wasnt an unhappy day and if i dont look back i'll never be able to blog about what i ate for lunch anymore. i am shitting words out now, pardon my crudeness :D when was the last time i posted pictures?

blogger always ignores me when i want to post pictures so too bad for everyone. which is actually only me. ohmygod why am i still talking? im sorry youre reading this, you really should stop now because its a waste of your time. gooebye :D

2008-12-31T06:00:00.000-08:00

celebrations.

im the first online! therefore i shall blog while waiting for the rest. :D maybe i'll post pics later see firsttttt! i think 2008 was quite a shitty year but i dont know why i enjoyed it. i dont make sense eh.. im sec4 nextyear hope i dont die! goodbye :D

2008-12-29T04:09:00.001-08:00

goodbye, once again

went to KL for the past few days for a wedding of a family friend :D our familys used to be real close in america. ok thats supposedly the case but i have no idea what happened then ._. anyways quite obviously im the youngest, and the rest are like at least 7 years older than me? 0.0 hohoho. hope youre not stupid enough to infer that the guy in the suit is the groom :D and the one on his left is his bride! hope they dont mind me posting pictures of them eh. heheh.

www.typicalben.blogspot.com :D

2008-12-23T00:45:00.001-08:00

its the eve of christmas eve :D

english in taiwan hoho i had to read the chinese so understand what the english was supposed to mean.

I AM SUPER BORED CAAAAN. i wanted to go out today but i woke up at 3am in the morning because my best friend knocked on the door. she brought me some cramps too, said it was an eve of christmas eve gift. ok im not making sense and i hope guys dont read my blog :D

anyways i couldnt sleep after i woke up and im dying now, so forgive me for wasting the next few minutes of your life by reading the next few paragraphs of shit(:

you know sometimes when we type too fast, and we mistype (if there's such a word) hahaha into jajaja. and last night i was wondering why no one mistypes haha into gaga. weird right? and the thing about money not being able to buy time. daddy said something the other day which i feel is super true, because money can buy time :D if you wanna save a few bucks and take a bus or train, you'll take a longer time compared to taking a taxi. therefore spending more would result in saving time. and why is there this shitty social stigma of not eating the last peice of duck or the last clump of vege when you go for dinners with friends (when i say friends i mean those adults who have all their ego to care about) just eat it already! omg super retard! and why soccer players all over the world have to spit their damn spit on the field during play. and why isnt that against the law?

ahhhhh byebye

2008-12-21T02:56:00.000-08:00

blogger hates me.
photobucket too, mygod ive spent 2897651082735 hours trying to upload pictures into this damn page. ): and im not trying anymore! roaryou. so the pictures down here are like the lucky ones that got to see the world, maybe when i feel like buddha, i'll upload the rest. i need peace in my heart first :D thus many pictures are totally random and i wont be talking about the taiwan trip because i dont like talking a lot :D

/edited.
anyways today i went all the way to admiralty and got scolded by that damn taxiuncle to see some lovely people :D mygod yilin is a butcher hahahaha. i miss them, cant wait for christmaseve (provided my mum can persuade daddy not to leave for malaysia on 24th, which is the shittiest plan ever) and twilight :D

pretty lake. boring caption. my fingers are typing against my own will now.

i swear i tried to make him laugh but he just stared straight. pfft.

i bought this! gives me a warm idontknowhowtoexplain feeling when i read it. almost with guilt. :/

this is my family, these are my friends, we are singapore, singaaaaporeeeeaaaannnsss!

you dont know how many times people asked if we were twins ok! i donteven know how we look alike ._.

ok im bored already imma continue reading 19minutes!

2008-12-19T03:48:00.000-08:00

i am home.
and lost.
and tired.
and fcked up.

i miss you.

pictures tomorrow, goodbye :D

2008-12-10T02:36:00.000-08:00

its my 150th post! :D

and i announce that i am going taiwan tmr! miss me please! actually i was going to blog just to tell everyone that i'll be missing for a week plus, but since its my 150th post i shall blog more! yes i know i dont make a lot of sense but pretend i do. (:

anyways last night me and jie set up out christmas decorations! i risked my life and like went into the storeroom to dig everything out ok. even that damned christmas tree which i bet weighs 2 times more than me. but mummy cant find the wire thing for the lights, so no lights?!? a non lights christmas tree sounds like boo. roar D:

ok goodbye :D

2008-12-09T03:50:00.000-08:00

all those shouldhavebeens,

hello dead blog! :D
ok i have to post fast fast cus after my jie finishes bathing we're gna set up the christmas tree!
actually i dont know why westill do it since christmas is 2 weeks away and we will hardly be in singapore -.-
but still! traditions! :DD

and i went orchard with jie today. we tried to match clothes so tis pink with denim hahaha

merrien's house! pictures do the talking :D
hoho i love sec3 girls! brother ji nian liaooooo

anyhow art! quite fun hoho :D

a quite failed jump shot. lol

its click8 - rachel and yiyang plus jeslyn :D

a reminder that i am super inflexible D:

ahhhh kill me caaaan?

anyways after anyhow art lingyuan angelina jinghui went home first

and meyilinolivia went for supper i reached home at like 12 30 and my mum didnt scold me! ohmygod shocking :D

okokbyebye!

2008-11-27T06:54:00.000-08:00

no one has the right to give up. we can only move forward.

2008-11-25T04:28:00.000-08:00

the things that could have been;

sometimes i wonder if we havent done enough.
but i dont know whats enough, and i dont know if im doing things right.
i dont know if i should speak nicely or if i shouldscream at people if i get angry. and i wonder if its our fault that things arent like before. i cant believe laoshi said that sentnce today. maybe its the end. maybe its going to fall in our hands. i feel crippled. and i think the rest must be feeling worse.

im afraid.

2008-11-22T04:42:00.000-08:00

all is nothing.

my snowman bun from breadtalk i ate last night :D

cute right cute right? haahha its chcolate outside and raisins and nuts inside!

and did i tell you that im feeling very horrible now? :/

im having a fever and some really mysterious orhchehs on my leg. plus im losing my voice. this is horrible booooo! but nevermind, i have one day to recover before dance starts again!

on the other hand open house was really fun! :D goodbye i am bored.

2008-11-19T04:13:00.000-08:00

thankyou for the memories,

ill remember you - NO SECRETS
im bored.
non dancers, you've been warned! :D

yesterday was cultural pot. if its really the last big performance we will ever have, i enjoyed it. damn much. UCC holds many memories, especially SYF. ohmygod. and cultural pot 07. :D like angelina said, i think at that time if the moon hit the earth we would only know how to run. now we'd evacuate all the other dancers before that happens. hahahaha..2 rehearsals and lunch and dinner and bread and makeup. and although there were some eye moisturising (caused by evelyn, and then nicholas.) anyways now i feel retarded because i was acting like the sky was going to fall.

and i'll really miss us. the batch of 1993 :D 16 guys and 20 girls. 3 years isnt a long time, and 4 years are too short. and although maybe we only got closer to each other a little too late, its better late than never :D maybe things arent the same now, as batch by batch leaves. because now we're in charge. now we've grown up. although we're still very stupid and crazy and spastic and retarded. but thats not the point. i'll miss speechday 06, syf opening 06, ndp06, mid autumn 06, summercamp 06, dance at suntec 06, open house 06, cca extravaganza 07, syf 07, cny 07, speech day 07,cultural pot 07, mid autumn 07, mindef and china trip 07, open house 07, cca extravaganza 08, cny 08, syf opening 08, ndp08, Tday 08, cultural pot 08..

i sound crazy now i think. but im afraid of counting down the performances we have left. its not like we're graduating or its ORD tmr, or we're no longer going down for dance pracs, or we've retired from exco, but i never thought that it could hurt so bad. and i will really miss you guys!!!! like crazy, like shit.

i'll remember the fun times together. the screams and cheers:D and i'll remember the tears we've shed. i'll remember the moment when syf results were released. i'll remember the blisters and the skin and blood on the floor. hahaha. i'll remember the bruises and the injuries. and all the times we've been through. every performance. and the sweat. i think the sweat that we've all sweated in 3 years can fill up a lake by now. I'LL REMEMBER EVERYTHING WE'VE BEEN THROUGH TOGETHER LAH! :D maybe we're not the perfect batch, but i think we're close enough. i think these years in nhds are like, irreplacable. seriously. and i want to give everyone a super big hug. i want to stand on stage and do HEYHEYHEYHA and i want to do a dance cheer. i want to giggle until we fall asleep during shui jiao times. even though we'd have disagreements at times, i think we've really stayed toegther. and weive given our all to dance, and there are around 6 months left. what we can provide for dance lies in there i guess. so i say, thankyou for the memories, thankyou sec3s, i'll remember you guys :D

hohoho.