We are mere hypocrites of our promises. Be it vows, commitments or mere affirmations. So many times I had had promised something that at a certain point of time seemed to be perfectly acceptable, but after a period I come to realise that many of such promises have become an abyss of nothingness.
Fuck that. That's what we all do, assuring one another that a pact would be kept, but once the time comes we forget anything we once said, and the sugared words of honour plainly dissolves after a while.
Often i tell myself never to do that anymore, not to take someones pact for granted. Never to naively believe everything I hear, not to trust that a promise would be fulfilled when I know that there is a chance that it might never be. But I guess friends have an empowering effect on people, an unspoken spell that makes us trust whatever they say.
But we never practise what we preach.
So here i am. Sorry to those that I've hurt, I know there are many promises that i had failed to keep. And although I know its never anyones fault, fuck all those who raised my hopes high, only to bring it crashing down again.
Tonight, I've learnt that disappointment doesn't taste as bitter as I thought it would. Perhaps with time I have adapted to its sapidity.