friend? don't know why im so.. pissed? nah thats not the word. perturbed maybe. my favourite word to use.
because im wondering, although i know its not right to wonder, not right to think badly of others, of someone who is supposedly my.. friend.
but i cant help it. i still wonder.
i wonder what you tell them, i wonder if they know. i wonder what you're thinking. i wonder if she knows all those things that you said about her. i wonder if they know all those things you've said about them.
i dont really care about brainwashing anymore. at least, i don't try to. its natural for all 3 sides to have such impressions on each other.
27 days to Os, and here i am, blogging and whining like a sec1 twit or something.
but i can't help it.
i wonder if he knows how you treat your friends, if she knows how you treat your friends, if they know how you treat your friends.
8 more days of school, why do i still care?
but i still wonder, and i wonder why.
i wonder why everything seems wrong to you, i wonder why you're always right. why we all used to just keep quiet, maybe to prevent a fight?
i wonder, why I'm starting to feel more negative, why im moving to the other side.
i shouldn't wonder, but i can't stop.
i wonder how there are different definitions of a friend. an accessory? spare tires? someone you've always enjoyed being with since the beginning?
after that day i felt sorry, but for some reason the guilt just fades away. whats worse is that its being replaced by.. dislike. not hatred, dislike.
8 more days left of school, how many days are we actually going? it'll end like this i guess. so i should stop wondering. stop.
stop wondering because it wont make a difference, because there isn't time left, because its mean to wonder, because i shouldn't be a bitch.